YEAH. In case it hasn't been noticeable, April has been a very very chill month. Wednesday half days, much of the work is classroom based (ie mindless), the patients and doctors I work with on tuesday and thursdays are my favoritest and its a PLEASURE going in. I actually feel okay about medical school and that I'm not swimming upstream, for once. It's so incredible.

(This will all change back in May & June though...)

The cons are once again, the dating scene. Now that I'm approaching three years without a real relationship, it sucks. I mean, I LOVE being single (& selfish!), but it just wears you down to not have someone to be intimate with emotionally. And, it wears me down because although I am dating, I don't know what the fuck I'm doing and it seems like I'm doing it all wrong, and its frustrating as shit to constantly be fucking up with guys I LIKE. And it's annoying because I'm pretty optimistic and calm about everything else and I dont want to be that girl, you know? I hope residency offers a change of scenery or something helpful.

I am one day away from completing FIVE WEEKS of 5/wk workouts! I feel so so so much better and hope that I can maintain this as life gets more hectic (&miserable).

On monday I ran outside (as was written about). 4 miles apparently.

Tuesday was a quick indoor 2-miler in 20 minutes. Totally wasn't feeling it since it was after a 12 hour day.

Wednesday was my free trainer session at the gym, which was boxing. I LOVED IT. the time flewwww by. I know about uppercuts now!

Thursday was off. wednesday night may have consisted of whiskey shots....

Today was this weights/step/squats times a million class. It was torture, in the best way possible. I LOVED the instructor & should probably go every friday.

And look where I am today (friday) night. Doing usmleworld questions! Epic.

Tribeca Film Festival is coming up though! I couldn't go last year because of boards, but this year looks promising. I want to see the short films!

Other exciting May things include seeing Thursay and Small Brown Bike (I hope... this would depend on my call schedule) and two weeks of vacation (!!!). I need to plan that.

Also, I'm a bridesmaid! For a wedding in late June. So excited! (My mom however hates me for this, bc of the money aspect. What a party pooper!)

And, also, you know what though? In the past three single-years, I have learned so much and grown so much as a person and am at my awesomest, so maybeeeee I should just try to appreciate that. Or something.

Yeah I'm not really a blogger.

4 weeks of 5x/wk workouts though!

Running 4x & stairmaster/rowing machine combo 1x.

Today I ran outside and it was amazing. Lots of puppies out!

HOWEVER, with all of this, I am a bit stressed/feeling guilty about not focusing on school as much. Oh welllll.

Nothing eventful, really. Two dudes leave, two more cute guys in the horizon instantaneously. This is kind of cool for the "look I'm still young and awesome" but also annoying because the odds of either of them being legit is actually 0.

That and since I'm moving in a few months (:/ best roommate ever will be no more), and since the 4th years are moving in a month or two and will be MEGABUSY next year (it will suck. a lot. i have far more 4th yr friends than 3rd yr friends), I've been making it a point to spend as much time with everyone as possible. And recovering from those ventures. So no films... It's time to slow it down though.

Friday involved TWO house parties, yet still ended by 2. I drank 3 glasses of wine throughout the night, so not too bad.

This was to save my energy for the formal on saturday, where I may have had 3 drinks before dinner arrived. Oops. I mostly cut myself off after that. Though I missed desert because I don't really eat unhealthy things when I drink. It's kind of weird. So I got home at 1:30 and played with the rabbit and then talked my roommate into going to the bar down the street until we were the last ones there. And, sure, a tequila shot at 3am never hurt anyone, right? I'm sorry I do things like this to my body.

Then sunday was the yummiest brunch ever, except all I wanted to eat was carbs & butter. And a lot of them. Sigh. So lesson learned, I CAN undo a TON of gym-ness in 12 hours of time.

The Godiva was delicious! (Even better than my 85% dark chocolate? Maybe. That or I just needed something new).

I've been having actual weekends! With days off. PLURAL.

I completed three weeks of 5-a-week gym parties. I can now run 2 10-minute miles. And four miles in a bit under 11-minute miles. That's horrific compared to how awesome I used to be, but not bad considering how inactive I've been.

MOVIES. Um. I saw Wet Hot American Summer the other day. I need to watch all of the classics that I have never seen. Fargo and American Psycho need to be viewed next.

I also saw A Single Man. I was in tears by the end of the first line in that movie. Utterly brilliant amazing beautiful perfect movie. One of my now-favorites. And now we are up to three movies that have made me cry.

I went shopping and worked on my CV and caught up with friends. I need to study. I cannot wait for a point in my life when my weekends are pure carefree.

Yikes, NEGLECT.

I am on my internal medicine rotation and essentially I am BURNT to a crisp from medical school, but I feel better after having yesterday off and half of today off. By half of today off, I mean I worked 8 rather than my expected 13 hours.....

I saw Exploding Girl yesterday. I needed to do SOMETHING fun in the midst of a lot of cleaning/laundry/food shopping. The trailer is below, but I don't think it depicts this movie at all, really. There were certain things I LOVED about this movie, but also certain things that just annoyed me because it could be so perfect if there was just a bit more.... crust to it. A little less sweet.

So it's about this girl who comes home from her first year of college for the summer and her friend crashes at her apartment. All while her boyfriend from college (long distance) is getting deuchier and deuchier and she is being niceeeeee throughout the entire thing.

I LOVED it because there were lines in there that were straight out of my life, word for word. In a creepy way. (And I LOVED how an audience member said "deuchebag" to the screen when one of those instances was happening). And that's rather hard to depict in a film, I would think. But at the same time I don't think it lived up to the VERY high potential that it had. Still above average for a movie, but so close.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=odwjZPKjyVo

I walked to and from the theater in VERY heavy rainfall and stopped by Whole Foods on the way back. Minus the excess rain, it was the perfect 4-hours... long walk through manhattan, passing the chair store (I loveeeee funky chair stores. they had a hanging one!), watching a quiet movie, buying groceries from whole foods, eating black bean soup upstairs, walking back, warm shower, etc, all while listening to good music w the headphones. Yay.

After I got home I went to the gym for a run. I love running but just dont do it enough because I am always too exhausted at the end of the day. It was just a 2.25 slow run, to ease into a hopefully run-full week.

Then I went to Madame Clause (http://www.madameclaudecafe.com/tour.htm), this beautiful reasonably priced homey french restaurant with my parents.

I had delicious french bread, then the Ratatouille & Goat cheese crepe with a salad followed by an apple tart topped with fresh homemade creme that we all split. So incredible.

We talked about the new gym that they joined (they go 5x week!) and, school... Better than them asking about whether or not I want to die alone, because if not, I should probably be a bit more on it....

They gave me a small box of Godivas. Usually I am a 85% dark chocolate gal but we'll give this a shot.

So my most hated part of school is putting in the patients I see under the patient log. Why can't I just check off if I saw a kid with asthma and not repeatidly enter his info over and over? WASTEOFTIME.

Fine. On saturday there was this lateeeee night after party (ie starts at 3am...) with the bestest DJ ever (seriously), and I went and I LOVEDIT. They have them from time to time and its this secret-y thing, with a small turnout (so everyone is WAY genuinely nice) and the drinks are cheap ($2.50 for a STRONG rum and coke) and its one of those things where my friends will make sacrifices to go to. It's also always one of those nights where I don't do regretful things because I am so genuinely satisfied with everything, and you just kind of wake up the next day with a smile. Also, I made friends (gay guy and a girl! we talked about boys and smoked cigarettes....oops. I hope I see them around).

So, didn't really fullfill my goal of not drinking this weekend, but, thats an okay exception.

For my lack of a valentine on vday, I made delicious stir-fry for my friends. Soba noodles, onions, frozen thai vegetable mix, chili sauce until the veggies turned red (mmmm), oil, and soy sauce. I also realized that a) I really genuinely love being single and b) I am adding "doesnt like spicy foods" onto my "things that will be a dealbreaker" list. Which probably has too much on it and may need some editing at some point. Maybe.

We had a snow day yesterday and a delayed opening today!

It's pretty great because I am 100% used to snow like that after four years of rochester and really didn't feel all that "unsafe" about coming in despite driving an OLD OLD vehicle with not the greatest traction/brakes, but hey, if everyone else is freaking out, then sure I'll go to the beer garden & neighborhood bar in anticipation, sleep in, read a bit about Russia (more to come....), watch In Treatment, go to the gym (ran 2 miles), go for an hour-long walk with my roommate (and chatted up our art teacher for a bit... lovehim), and watch Fish Tank.

I should have done a bit more work, but, well.... yeah.

The art class got cancelled, but last weeks painting is in my hands and I love it. I may take a picture of it to upload, but I kind of feel like a tool doing that.

In Treatment is getting a bit too much of the same, so I'm going to take a break from it for a week or so and watch Sex, Lies and Videotape this weekend.

Fishtank was pretty good, but I fell asleep during the last twenty minutes (fairly common theme for me) so I don't want to comment too much. I loved what I saw though, but not in a "BEST MOVIE EVER" type of way that I saw in some reviews I read. It's essentially a british 15-year old girl with a deucheeeeeeeeey mom (to put it lightly), and then her mom starts dating this wickedgoodlooking british guy. Then the guy goes after the daughter and then much drama unfolds. What I loved about it though, is that while they played the "lonely angsty teenager who doesn't think anyone cares", it was never overdone. All in all, I enjoyed it. But then again, I tend to find the good in any movie I see.

I realized that I have never said a movie was bad on this site, nor can I remember the last time that I HATED a movie that I picked to see (transformers and batman was a different story). So I guess I'm pretty selective about things and perhaps I do miss some good movies because I don't think I would like them. Hmm.

Oh well, 1.5 more days and then the weekend. Possibly a three day one! The hospital that I am at celebrates Presidents Day like a normal place of employment. But, my school doesn't, and I am technically held under my school's policies, and I will be in the ER anyways so there isn't the "but no one will come in" card. Hmm.

Oh boy.

The kids got me sick.

There is this one baby who I loveeeeedddd and it was totally an epiphany moment. It won't be until many years from now, but there is actually a chance that I will have a kid and that never felt that real until the little baby I was holding was just so perfect. I was staring and staring at himand then he fell asleep and then I was still staring in awe of how amazing every little thing about him was. How, even though I've known this little fella for a week, I would do so much to have his health improve and want the very very best for him. I can't even imagine what it's like when its your own child.

Anyways. This weekend was me being sick, so at least that kind of slowed me down a tiny bit. Though I can't sit at home for more than 7 hours without exhibiting hardcore cabin fever...

I saw Off and Running, which was a documentary about an African-American girl who was adopted by two Jewish lesbians. There are also two other adopted siblings and it was very interesting and well done.

I also saw Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist (LOVE IT) and (500) Days of Summer (pretty good).

I am still watching In Treatment, I am about to finish disk 5 of 9 of the first season. It's such a tradition to watch five episodes every weekend and it's something I look forward to during the week. I guess I'll have to find another show to replace the void that will happen in a few weeks.